as long as we're going down

Since this journal is primarily for fanfic, here's a nice, easy, alphabetical list of all the fics I've written.  (Note that anything written before August of '09 was originally posted on ff.net, where I used to go by the name Sztorm.  I have since cross-posted those fics, under their original publish dates.)

Fandoms included below are:

- Black Angel (1946)  (6)
- Catherine and the Pirate  (1)
- Darker Than Black  (1)
- Escaflowne  (14)
- Final Fantasy VII  (15)
- Final Fantasy X  (1)
- Frozen  (1)
- Get Smart  (1)
- Her Friend, the Burglar  (1)
- Hetalia  (36)
- Love For the Asking  (1)
- Love Pawn, The  (11)
- Original Fic  (1)
- Star Trek: The Next Generation  (14)
- Stranger Things  (1)
- A Tale of Two Cities  (1)
- This Gun For Hire (1942)  (11)
- The Tick (2017)  (1)

Cross-overs:
- FFVII / The Sandman  (1)
- Trigun / The Sandman  (1)
- Hetalia / FFVII  (1)

Various ficbits (random scenes, drabbles, etc.) can be found here.  The few other fan-related things I've made (FSTs, fanart, etc.) can be found at the very bottom of this post.

( Fic Master List )

Title: Not Like I Faint Every Time We Touch
Fandom: Star Trek: The Next Generation
Genre: Romance (unrequited), crack treated seriously
Characters/pairings: Linda Larson, Reginald Barclay (Larson->Barclay).
Rating: PG-13
Word count: 1,183
Summary: In which Lieutenant Linda Larson develops an embarrassing crush. (Takes place during “The Nth Degree.” Inspired by these two Tumblr posts.)

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( It was his overstepping of authority that really made her stop and look at him—the sheer audacity of it. And the words ''Reg Barclay'' and ''audacity'' went together about as well as Captain Picard and children did. )

Title: Sharp As Glass and Twice As Bright
Fandom: Original Work
Genre: Western, drama, romance?
Characters/relationships: Outlaw Heroine/Deputy Hero
Rating: R
Word count: 734
Summary: They really should have gagged him. That would have been the sensible thing to do. (An original piece inspired by a pulp magazine cover. Image also included inside the fic on AO3, along with full content warnings.)

Now has a follow-up piece!

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( ''I swear I'll hunt you down and see you hanged for this,'' he seethed. )

Title: And Foolish Though It May Seem (To Me, That’s Everything)
Fandom: This Gun For Hire (1942)
Genre: AU, drama, romance.
Characters/pairings: Philip Raven/Ellen Graham
Rating: PG-13
Word count: 1,662
Summary: When had their roles gotten reversed, she suddenly wondered. She was the one who was supposed to worry about him, or so she’d thought. He’d had such a rougher time of things, after all. (Or, a missing scene from They’ll Ask Me Why and I’ll Tell Them I’d Rather, that takes place the day after Ellen’s breakdown.)

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( The back door to the kitchen was propped wide open, spilling a measure of light and noise out into the alley behind the club. Ellen approached it a little reticently, tugging at the wrist of one of her mesh gloves. )

Title: Soul of My Heart, Spirit of My Soul
Fandom: Love For the Asking (Short Story)
Genre: Gen, pre-romance.
Characters: Nadia Minor, Drew Carteret
Rating: PG-13
Word count: 2,626
Summary: “So is that what this visit is about?” she asked, with a mocking lift of her eyebrow. “Checking in on your investment?” Somehow things had a tendency to turn sarcastic between them. It was easier that way, she’d found. Easier with the emotional distance it created. (Or, a pre-canon fic based on yet another pulp story no one has read since it was initially published, pfft. We’ve got opera, class differences, complicated relationships, and the “walking in on someone” trope, baby! The original story, for reference, also involves class differences and complicated relationships, along with mutual pining and fake marriage. It can be read here (with a written summary/review of it here), but in the event you don’t want to bother with either of those, let it be known that I do provide some background context in the pre-fic notes.)

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( In truth, the shower made for difficult singing if one was trying to do it with anything resembling a formal technique. )

Title: Queen’s Gambit Accepted
Fandom: The Love Pawn (Short Story)
Genre: Romance, smut. (See AO3 post for full content tags.)
Characters/pairings: Paula Ingram/Red (Jack Delafield)
Rating: R
Word count: 866
Summary: Truly, her husband could be so patient when he needed to be. But then, he’d already proven that a long time ago, hadn’t he? (Post-canon fic. As before, the original short story can be found here.)

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( Paula sighed as she unclasped her garters and slid her stockings down her legs. )

(Posted to my tumblr, but cross-posted here because it is the sort of meta discussion I’ve posted here before and also I want to have a reasonable chance of finding it again someday.)

Was Raven of This Gun For Hire a victim of rape in his reform school days?

It’s a question I’ve honestly asked myself in the course of my fic writing, because prison rape was and still is a thing, obviously, and if we’re to believe that Philip Raven the character physically resembles Alan Ladd the actor, then I have a hard time believing he wouldn’t have been the target of at least some sort of sexual harassment/assault. Ladd was, after all, boyishly handsome and famously small in stature. Most sources put his height at 5’6”, and while the film pulls off some cinematography tricks to make him appear a bit taller, the character is still by no means a large dude; I’d put Raven at 5’8”, tops. And again, if we assume the character followed the same growth trajectory as the actor, then he was probably similarly small as a boy. (And even if he wasn’t, there’s still the fact that he was only fourteen when he went in, and presumably would have been doing time with boys who were older and more physically developed. My research on early 20th century reform schools is sketchy at best, but the age of majority at the time was twenty-one, which leads me to believe he could/would have been interacting with dudes as old as twenty.)

So with all that in mind, we come back to the question at the top: Was Raven raped in reform school? The short answer is no, I don’t think he was—and this is not just wishful thinking on my part, but a genuine extrapolation of his character.

( Tl;dr: No, never raped, but probably felt up in some respect. The aggressor(s) would have gotten shanked before they could go any further. )

Title: Madwoman’s Chess
Fandom: The Love Pawn (Short Story)
Genre: Drama, romance.
Characters/pairings: Paula Ingram/Red (Jack Delafield)
Rating: PG-13
Word count: 2,163
Summary: There had been at least a couple times that day where she easily could have broken away or alerted someone about her predicament. The pilot of the airplane Red had chartered, for instance. Or the hotel clerk, when he signed them in after their landing in California. But she hadn’t. And…why? (Or, Paula self-reflects as she gets ready for the masquerade ball. As before, the original short story can be found here.)

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( Freshly bathed and about to step into an 18th century style dress, complete with wig and mask, there was a big part of Paula that couldn’t believe she was actually going through with this. )

Title: En Prise
Fandom: The Love Pawn (Short Story)
Genre: Drama, romance.
Characters/pairings: Paula Ingram/Red (Jack Delafield)
Rating: PG-13
Word count: 468
Summary: It had been one thing to watch Monty Lewis kiss her. The same could not be said for Eric Kendall. (Missing/expanded scene. Could be considered a companion piece of sorts to this fic, as the one picks up right where the other leaves off. Also, as before, the original short story can be read here.)

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( It had nothing to do with jealousy, he insisted to himself. )

Title: Checkmate
Fandom: The Love Pawn (Short Story)
Genre: Drama, romance, horror?
Characters/pairings: Paula Ingram/Red (Jack Delafield)
Rating: PG-13
Word count: 1,205
Summary: For a sick moment, reality tilted, then snapped back into place with horrifying clarity. “You!” she gasped. “You, Red, and the butler, Benson, are the same! You got that place in my home just to find out about me, didn’t you?” (Expanded scene from the short story. As before, you can find more details in the pre-fic notes of this story.)

So yes, this is an expanded scene from the original story. The dialogue remains almost entirely unchanged, along with the actual action(s), but I beefed up the surrounding prose (mostly because there was so very little of it to begin with).

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( She backed up a shaky step as the full weight of the situation settled on her like a nightmare. )